Things don't have to be like this...

If you are struggling with substances and want to stop the best thing to do  is ask for help, its what worked for me.
Get in touch with my friends @
Alcoholics Anonymous
https://aa.org.au/

Narcotics Anonymous
https://www.na.org.au/multi/

If you are in crisis please cal lifeline https://www.lifeline.org.au/  

or BeyondBlue ​https://www.beyondblue.org.au/ 

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